At times there is nothing like reading through old emails, listening to a voicemail that you saved or flipping through photographs to put you right back into a moment in time- which can be good or so not healthy!
Welcome to Mama Bear Moments! This is a place that I want to create for myself and others who are sorting through things in life. I know for myself I have come a LONG way but sometimes you can’t realize how far you have come until you take a gander back in time.
This morning I was cleaning out old emails, some dating back to 2007. At first I was thinking “why in the world did you keep these?” and then I started reading through various folders and emotions popped up immediately for what was happening in that time and space of our lives. At the time it was things that I read and re-read over and over, brood on what was happening in the relationships of my life. Today the memory floats up but the emotion is not connected to it (or at least very vaguely)— thankfully! (Can I just say it feels good to know that years of therapy and healing prayer have paid off?) More on that later.
Much like my FB posts you can see the course of my thoughts and emotions simply from the titles in the email subject line. “Please pray”, “Can you believe the nerve?”, “trying to reconcile”, “Birthday celebrations” and on goes the tag lines. There are people, circumstances and experiences you never want to remember again and yet with distance one can see somethings differently, right? As I read through threads I can feel and sometimes hear the voice of the person (or myself) as the words were written. The intention for you as writer never quiet reads the way you wanted for the receiver.
Over the weekend I also went through my voicemail box on my home phone (yes I still have a land line) and my cell phone but I could not bring myself to delete some of the voicemail messages from a couple people. Hearing the messages tapped some deep places of hurt, wounding and grief which surprised me and yet I could not delete them yet. One more layer of grieve to arise and be unwrapped, later.
But, I get ahead of myself. My name is Lisa and for several months now I have had the domain of the blog set up and could not possess the courage to begin writing. Actually, I take that back, I would start many blog posts and scrap each one but this morning is the day to push play, post, dive in, or a myriad of other phrases as they say to– commit.
I am a Mama Bear (MB)! I am not certain how it started but that is what my kids call me and I sign things MB when I sign off on cards, email and texts to my kids. (By the way, their dad is Papa Smurf -PS).
For me, it is term of endearment and as I write these words I hear each of my children’s’ grown and child voices say “Mama Bear” and it makes me smile. They each know that this Mama has their back and is fierce for them to be the best they can be with a mind of Christ.
So just a quick introduction today, I am a follower of Christ – first and foremost! Once upon a time I probably would have made fun of or at the very least smirked at someone like me but now – full on Jesus lover and proud of it!
I grew up here in Colorado and married my high school sweetheart and just to be clear, I was in high school, he was not. Steve, who I affectionately call ‘boyfriend” and I have been married for 35 years!~ Woo Hoo! I am the most blessed gal on the planet to be married to this incredible man. We have three grown children and two additions via marriage and I never knew you could expand your heart so much, although grandchildren will blow that heart up, right? I work as a massage therapist and love every minute of my day with clients. I will probably stop there as there will be plenty of time for you to get to know me.
So why write? The only thing I know is that it has been on my heart for forever to write and as I began to pray several years back -literally “Mama Bear Moments” was the title.
What do I most want you to know today?
Abba, Jesus and Holy Spirit have captivated my soul! Transformed my life! The trinity is tangible and alive and I want to share who they are to me as an encouragement for someone else and what we each go through here on earth is worth relationship with them now and forever!
Have a blessed day by making someone else’s!
Mama Bear Moments 